This will be my last post for a while, i've lost the most important person in my life and now it seems ridiculous to blog about how happy my life is. There's that moment in life where you find yourself at rock bottom and nothing seems worth it, so i have to basically start over. Hopefully in time i will heal. I've realized hope is maybe one of the most painful things in the world. I hope she comes back but i know she wont, thats the worst part in all of this knowing the person you love wont chase after you.
Now we are starting to love you more Your body's on the canvas I painted on the floor If I could take you somewhere, I'd take you to the darkest place, scatter you in art forms, admire the horror beauty in different ways, your hands on picture frames your eyes in the glass wear your face as a mask
- sleeping in late - having no homework - being loved back - first swim of the summer - a smile from that someone - when people laugh at your jokes - hugs that last more than a few seconds - when someone tells you that you smell good - when she texts you first - looking at pictures from when you were little - being called beautiful - when someone has a crush on you - finding those jeans that fit perfectly - making a stranger smile - listening to your favourite song - receiving hand-written letters - putting on sweatpants after wearings jeans all day - winning an argument - packing for a vacation - knowing you will be okay
Bucket list : Have a full library in my house Raise a my very own horse Get high with Abel Tesfaye See stonehenge Find someones lost pet Own a corset in every colour Own a farm See the cliffs of Moher Become a vegetarian Meet Kid Cudi See Falling in Reverse in concert and go backstage Own a black 1970s Charger Complete a scrapbook Visit Key West Get lost in Tokyo Have a full bar in my house Own a pair of Vans in every colour Visit Abbey Road and recreate the Beatles album cover Direct and write my own movie Sleep in a bounce house Learn Archery Go to the Hard Rock Cafe in Las Vegas See all the seven wonders of the world Go to the shooting range Make a Music Video Make my room more awesome Go on a road trip to nowhere Go to Amsterdam Visit every continent Dye my hair a random hair colour Go sky diving Do at least one strip tease Have a cliche hippie life Eat a croissant in Paris Go scuba diving Write a book trillogy Learn another language Meet bouddhiste monks Have a huge bonfire Own a Polaroid camera Get every single tattoo I want Make a wish a the Trevi fountain in Rome Steal a street sign Have the perfect stomach Throw a dart on a map and travel to wherever it lands Visit tomorrowland